Some of you may have noticed that I am not posting as much these days. I challenged myself in the month of December to post something every day and I did. Some of the posts I forced myself to do, so I won’t do that again. But ever since the first of the year, it has been hectic and things are ramping up to the race.
My silence could be taken as a sign of inward reflection, meditation, focusing on the task at hand, or conserving all my energy to unleash on this 100 mile adventure. When people ask how I feel, I always give the same response: “Fine”. Little do they know that the actual truth is that I am scared shitless. I am doing everything I can to contain my nervousness about this race because letting it out will not help one bit.
I have always been a crappy sleeper. I think I inherited it (thanks Pop!). Waking up at 3:50 AM to go to work is no problem for me because I am usually already awake. And I have no problem with that. Waking up at 1:15 AM to look at the clock, do the quick math (let’s see I have 2 hours and 25 minutes left to sleep) and then crashing again is pretty typical. However waking up at 11:45, 1:15, 2:30, etc. is getting pretty old. I don’t know what the actual cause of my waking up is but it is annoying. When I do wake up, more often than not I have trouble dropping quickly off to sleep again. My mind starts rolling and that is a bad thing.
Tomorrow I will volunteer at the Rocketkidz Marathon downtown and pick up my packet for the marathon on Sunday. For me, this marathon will be my last long training run. After that, I will reduce my training load significantly and try to let all the tears, tweaks, pulls and other muscular and skeletal issues heal up. I need to be as rested and recovered as possible.
I doubt I will start posting every day until I am well into the taper before the race. By then the nervous energy will have to be unloaded somewhere and the internet is a good start. I am sure by the time I reach the starting line I will be at peace with whatever the day has in store for me. But until then, I will be jacked up like a 6 year old Beauty Queen on Mountain Dew & Red Bull.